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now that i am not this

by The Jender Eternal Light Revue

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lyrics

now that i am not this
who do you wish me to be
write a card in detail
of what you expect out of me
i will heed your edict
as if the word above
i will form into your shaping
now that i am not this
will you take to my side in moments of rest
now that i am not this
will you see in my eyes that i’m trying my best
now that i am not this
now that i am not this
darkness
of my own creation

you are not my savior
i'm not your responsibility
crumbled figures of clay
swept by the frost in the breeze
so gather around, i've got needles to thread
spinning the yarn as i'm kicked in and out of
anywhere, just about anywhere that gave me a chance.
shine your smile at the sight and the touch
when we clutch to a helping hand
and find it's detached from the wrist
nothing's prepared us for this
i feel the prions folding
rot races towards my brain
gently sticking there for seasons
i will freeze in my place
with the emptiest eyes glossing over the snow
my impotent gaze
sinks as deep as ravines down the imogene glow
now that i am not this
i will change
i will change
i will change

i don’t think there was a world where i knew you that i didn’t love you
it’s the kinda love i wanna write about, the kinda love i think i could maintain

i cast my line through soot and smoke
in hopes of catching ill
I WILL CHANGE, I WILL CHANGE
i'm pulled into the lake of fire
and chewed out to the fields
I WILL CHANGE, I CONCEDE, I WILL CHANGE
falling headfirst in the grass
wild, charred, and undead
undead and chronically wasting
a shambling zombie
rapping at your door
i will change, i will change
right before your eyes
and the air, poison air
suffocates all disguises
and i move, i move and i groove like an animal
shamble, dead animal
move like an animal
groove like an animal
move like an animal
groove like an animal
(animal animal animal animal i will change i can promise you that much)

credits

released April 25, 2024
alex anderson - bass
jan davis - grand piano, vocals, writing
jacob kelly - drumkit, wurlitzer organ, vocals
sam rosson - producer, mixer, recording engineer
veni visceral - vocals, guitar, lap steel, chord organ, stylophone, producer, mixer, recording engineer, writing
recorded primarily at hall of justice studios on 11/11/2023 with overdubs handled at equinox studios and at home

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